I don't know if i feel like making this into a official letter to margaux but any way so lately its been kinda hard for me i saw margaux on birth mothers day but before that i had not seen her since December it was a long time and she had gotten so big shes eating bread shes been sitting up on her own its crazy how time flies but honestly i feel like i had given birth to her yesterday not 29 weeks ago. it literally kills me inside to see how much i have missed like everyday i just wish i could be the one caring for her i just don't know if i'm strong enough to get through all this i feel like everyone's telling me suck it up get over it already be happy you get to see her live and thrive well i cant just suck it up i'm hurting everyday this little being that i was literally attached to for for almost ten months i cant just get over it shes my baby and now where she used to be it feels absent and void like something should be there or in my arms but there isn't there's no little cranky chubby munchie. i just really miss her.
