MY BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL BY: RACHEL ( biological mommy)

a beautiful baby girl
given to new parents
have a new home
with the warmth of a mothers hug
and her father smiling down
at a beautiful baby girl
who shines so bright
it would rivil the sun
the longing i feel
to have and hold
my beautiful baby girl
it pains me everyday
but i know she is safe
i know deep down
that she is secure
this beautiful baby girl
loved by all
she stole all our hearts
mine never to be found again
i can only hope
she holds my heart
very close to hers inside
my beautiful baby girl

Dear Margaux, 5

my days are a little easier to deal with, the sadness i feel during them i mean. but nights are a hell of a lot harder to deal with its when im alone it gets difficult, i cant sleep the pain over whelms me. but the other day as i stayed up and had another sleepless night i stayed up thinking, a few hours earlier i had just heard that someone i knew from junior high just died of an overdose at the age of 17. and the first thing i thought is how his parents must be feeling and i realized the only reason i thought about the parents first is because of you be cause i couldnt imagine how i would be if anything ever happened to you. but i love you so much margaux your a blessing to us all. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS.

MUCH LOVE,
BIOLOGICAL MOMMY
RACHEL

P.S. this was supposed to be posted like a week ago i just never finished writhing the post sorry

DEAR MARGAUX, 6

I can not wait i get to see you in 6 days time =D i feel like its been so long but thats probaly because from what i have seen in your pictures you have grown so much. i miss you so much and ya see i dont always feel the pain of not having you here it comes and goes but when it hits it hits hard its like overwhelming sadness clouds my day and everyone around me knows that im hurting. they know this because i am tired of putting a smileon my face and acting as though everything is okay when it isnt.im trying to do the best for me at work and things like that but its hard when im bringing my pain and suffering to work with me, there is already enouoph pain and suffering emotionally at my job. i just wish it was easier to let go because even though your with rob and kate i still have a problem getting you out of my head its like im afraid im going to forget what you look like and the few but wonderful moment i had with you. i dont want to for get ever those were the best moments of my life and will always be. so now i must at least find a better way to deal with the pain. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MARGAUX WITH ALL MY HEART ALWAYS AND FOR EVER!

MUCH LOVE,
BIOLOGICAL MOMMY
RACHEL

Dear Margaux, 4

My little baby girl is getting so big i almost didnt recognize you :) jk how could you not recognize your own baby lol i love you my little munchie and i miss you more and more everyday and i cannot wait to see you im kinda scared you wont fit in any of the gifts i bought you your getting so big well this post is going to be short cause i am at work but i really felt like i needed to write. but i love you and miss you my little munchie and i cant wait till i see you again.

much love
biological mommy
Rachel